Down the Road - New Version

RETROSPECT - Chapter 1

 RETROSPECT - Chapter 1

–2022–

I know that the courage I’ve had when I was 22 is no longer the same as when I turned 24. My father had just passed away, we had so many family fights, over finances, responsibility shares, and mixed emotions; more on scattered all over the place. Losing a piece of you will never be easy. It’s just unfair that he did not live long enough to see our success and his adorable granddaughter.

But here we are, still kicking! Well, we have to.

2022 has never been easy for all of us. While lamenting the 2nd year of dad’s passing, mom and I had a big fight that lead us to deciding on transferring to the city. This is just a much crazier version of wanting to get the kind of love and affection we’ve been getting from my dad that my mom was never used to giving. 

She cares for us of course, but the show of affection lacked. Maybe she had some reservations given that me and my siblings are all girls.

There’s just that individuality of them being parents to us. And it’s a bigger kind of view for me now that I am also a parent of one. I guess, being married does not guarantee that likelihood of raising a better kid. Differences still come out as to how you were raised as a kid to how you now raise your own kid. There’s a lot of childhood traumas and bad experiences for me and Aaron. And I tell you, it is hard to face them almost every day.

You will never get to understand what they’ve been through if you only listen to yourself. And so, listening and keeping it cool sometimes is the best solution to having a calm and happy home. But then again, it always is not the case. All the crazy little butterflies in my stomach are gone. Mid-20’s can be crazy for us because we no longer are excited with parties and boozes, we are more excited with real estate, business, investments, and getting stable. 

Maybe even if Heaven is not here, we will still want the same thing, just because, starting early is better than delaying what you can do now for your future. It’s slow but it’s a progressive year for us.

We transferred here in Manila as I mentioned in my previous blog before I turned 26. Oh, and just a little bit of update, my birthday was in Pico de Loro Country Club in Batangas!

It was magical but full of disagreements too. We’ve just spent a lot to sustain our shop, and now, we’re back to only one job each. All our plans did not go as well as how I pictured it the first time. Getting off debts, saving more, while living lavishly is never an easy thing to balance. 

But I am happy to share how every month of 2022 was for us. We were here January 29, By February, we were getting into a lot of adjustments as it’s now only just the 3 of us..

By February, we started projecting our goals and first of them is reaching out to Aaron’s family. Since lockdown, he had never been home, and it’s just now that we have a chance to also share our blessings. It was a normal weekend when I randomly decided on going to Tagaytay Crosswinds with Aaron’s sister, cousin, grandma and her grandma’s sister who we call Tita Essie.

Heaven’s birthday was also approaching so we treated them to a fine dinner at Balay Dako. it is one of the most famous restaurants in the area and we’re just loving how Aaron’s family is with these tiny gestures.

We went home with new memories. It was cold, Heaven was their favorite of course, and she just made everything better like it’s magic since day 1.

March came and my mom and sisters with Jane, my sister’s bestfriend came over to Manila to celebrate Heaven’s birthday. It was her first, and Manila has not eased up yet on the pandemic, so we were not able to invite friends. It was just family.

We ate at Vikings in Makati, it was an extravagant buffet restaurant and I still managed to set up the grandeur of celebrating our little one’s birthday. We started heading to a baby modeling agency and afterwhich, we went back to Makati for the celebration.

The middle of March came and we and Aaron’s family had more city life moments. Like playing bowling at Mall of Asia, eating at restaurants, roaming around the city in a car my father gave me, and getting closer to them.

There’s a lot of photos on my instagram @meaganph, so let’s continue to April on my next blog!

Next year, I won't be doing a retrospect anymore, I'd like to be more updated with you guys so I can be more in the moment too when writing!